MElanchoLiA's world

i was missing him so much recently..
why did it appeared again??
i cant stop missing him..
i was so silly..
just hoping he will tell me that he miss me..
really miss you!!!
rrggghhh.....
its been a long time we didnt have a chat right?
i am looking for the time when you will online...

when i read back to my post...my blog...
i found that i was thinking childishly for some times...
haha...he gone to canada..
having a new life there...i think it was a wonderful life for him..ya..
he have a good future...good family...good friends..some more???
a good ex gf like me..haha..kidding man..
we still keeping in contact...
but...i was definitely missing him!!haha..
i have been cried for these days...why is it so??
why cant i tell him??haizzz.....
i will be start working soon...yeah...
emm...just for a part time job...
and some more i dont need to think so much...haha..
now...i still revolving in the snare...
what shall i do?
let it be??
emmhhhmmm...

who are the vector that are responsible for my infection???
now...
i feel more better than before...
who else can share this with me??
or...nobody will care about me?
or it just a simple disease??i take it serious?
what for i surfing internet to find for the information??
any use??besides no cure??
i want and i should take good care of myself...

i told you that i get infect of this disease...
you got no respond on me...
seems like you ignoring me...
i know...
exam is running...
and i told you this in not a suitable time.....
maybe all of my things you wont care anymore...
and....
seem like i dont need to tell you this by the way...

Objectives
The routes of human infection with Helicobacter pylori remain unclear. In the present study, we examined cockroaches as possible vectors for transmission of H. pylori.
Methods
We used a common species of cockroach (Periplaneta fuliginosa). After a 3-day fast, cockroaches were placed on agar plates containing freshly grown H. pylori (Sydney strain) (challenge group) or on sterile agar plates without H. pylori (control group). After 24 h of challenge, cockroaches were moved to disinfected containers, and sterile food and water were provided. The external surfaces (legs and body) and excreta of the cockroaches were sampled for culture, rapid urease test, and polymerase chain reaction (PCR).
Results
H. pylori were culturable from the excreta of the challenge group for 24 h postchallenge. Positive rapid urease test results were obtained up to day 3, and PCR analysis was positive for H. pylori DNA up to day 7 from the excreta. In contrast, H. pylori were not culturable from the external surfaces of the cockroaches. The rapid urease test was positive for only 8 h, and PCR analysis was positive for H. pylori DNA for 1 day from the external surface.
Conclusions
Cockroaches usually live in unsanitary environments and may contaminate foods and food containment areas such as pantries. Transmission of H. pylori infection could be achieved via inadvertent ingestion of foods contaminated with cockroach excreta containing viable H. pylori.

i'm so tired of all of these...
please....
im so tired!!!!!!!!!!!!

once again i cant forget those things...
my friend told me that i should look forward...
from the time you make your choice and make the decision...
of course i have to do it...
always tell myself that i can do it and i must...
but....
am i trying?
i did not...
because...
we havent break the chain...
thats why the only hope make me confused...
and yet...
he knew we wont last forever...
i shall take those thing off...
i shall......
i dont want to cheat on myself..

因 为 你 爱 我 所 以 放 弃 我 如 果 能 让 我 从 新 再 来 一 次 我 希 望 我 不 曾 出 现 在 你 生 命 里�

哪里有彩虹告诉我 能不能把我的愿望还给我 为什么天这么安静 所有云都跑到我这里 有没有口罩一个给我 释怀说了太多就成真不了 也许时间是一种解药 也是我现在正在服下的毒药 看不见你的笑 要我怎麼睡得著 你的身影这麼近我却抱不到 没有地球太阳开始环绕 没有理由我也能自己逃 你要离开 我知道更简单 你说依赖 是我们的阻碍 就算放开 那能不能别没收我的爱 当作我最后才明白 看不见你的笑 要我怎麼睡得著 你的身影这麼近我却抱不到 没有地球太阳开始环绕环绕 没有理由我也能自己走掉 是我说了太多就成真不了 也许时间是一种解药解药 也是我现在正服下的毒药 �

放弃你是因为爱你

当你不再爱我，当爱你已成为你的负担，当相
爱已
是一种痛苦，那么，我 选择放弃 。
放弃你，是因为爱你。因为爱你， 所以不愿看
见你不快乐；因为爱你， 所以不愿看著你强
忍内心
的 挣扎；因 为爱你，所以不愿看见你勉强的
笑容 ；
因为爱你，所以愿意放了你。当爱 已成往事，又何
必苦苦追寻？强求得 不
到幸& lt;BR福，强求只能拉大你我的 裂
痕，只能加 深你我
的
痛楚。如果你真的 想走，我 无言，只能任你
去。
曾经以 为你是风筝，我手中握著那根线，无论
任你飞向何方，我最终都是你的归属。现在
终于明
白，其实爱你，就不 应该束缚 你。
“春花秋月何时了，往事知多少 ？”往事如
风，不如就让它随风而去 。当一切成空，惟
有回忆
伴 我。时间 能冲淡一切，包括我爱你的
心。不愿 意你看见我的眼泪，因为怕你会心软 ，
怕
你不开心。因为爱你， 所以不会 用泪水强
留，所以
放了你。 你的心已 远去，我又何苦留下你的
人？
虽然我渴望天长地久，但如果那只是一种奢
求，那我不如只求曾经拥有。曾经拥 有过你
的爱，
这已足够。因 为有一种 爱，叫做放弃。
放弃不是无私的奉献 。放弃你，这不仅是对你
的爱，更是 对我自己的呵护。放弃你，我很
痛心 ，
但我不会后悔。让你从我的生命中 消失，是 因为
“长痛不如短痛”。
因 为爱你，所以希望你快乐。
有人说过 这个世界不会有永恒的爱情。你我之
间，如果连短暂的爱情也无法存在，不如放开 彼
此。爱你，就让你去追寻你的幸福 。只要你
快乐，
我也就快乐 。
因为你的一切，我都在意。
如果你 要离开我，我不会怪你，只能怪我自
己，怪自己太爱你。 也许是我过分的宠溺让
你习惯
平静， 也许是我过分的放任让你没有责任，
也许是